To Date or not To Date?

Ok so when I started this blog I made it clear that its not about my ex or my divorce but only about me being the imperfect single dad.  I want to look on my situation and put down my thoughts about how I am raising my daughter.  I have been divorced for over a year and been separated for more than 2 years.  I have been so focused on my daughter that I really haven't put my full effort in dating and keeping a girlfriend.  I will say that I have a huge empty space in my life.  I know that my daughter also has an empty space, not that her mom isn't great with her but I don't think Angel sees enough of her.  I think that Angel needs a steady woman in her life more than me.  With that being said I do to.   I know that I am a one woman man and wish God would send me the right woman already, but I know that I cant rush him.  I just have to be patient. 

I have been actively looking but maybe I still need to shake my past animosities to allow the right person to get close to me.  I also want to be careful who I bring around my daughter.  I also think of all the possibilities of my future relationships and how each might effect my Angel.  I want the best for her and I also want to be able to date women to find what's best.  I think there is some conflict with this situation.  I am not sure what kind of dynamics would be best for Angel, me, and who I might date.  I am also aware that I might choose wrong again.  After all I had chosen wrong before.  Not that I regret my past marriage, but I don't want to make the same bad decisions.  I also don't ever want to be hurt the way I was. 

Enough about my feelings, what I need to think about is how do I know who to date and when, where, and how I will go about dating.  I am definitely not a clubber or a regular at the bar.  I am working from home now so I am even more limited with my opportunities for social interactions.  I have thought about the online thing but have found out that it is a part time job.  I also don't trust most people on the internet.  Most of my friends are married or have girlfriends so I don't have much prospects with them. 

I have met a few girls since being divorced but it seems like even though I think I am ready I probably am not.  I have had great opportunities and not been able to take advantage.  Ms. Lawyer, Ms. Cyber, Dr. Dutchy,  J-Lo, Selena, and Ms. Terrorism just to name them.  Some more relevant than others but still opportunities. 

So the question is to date or not to date.  Hmmm

Maybe I will go and listen to

NOVEMBER RAIN

Again.