Graduate

I have been on hiatus for awhile.  I am looking back on the most important days in the past year.  I have not written about my baby being a graduate so here it is.

My ex and I enrolled my Angel in a daycare before she was 2 years old.  I really loved the ladies and loved the program.  The daycare did a Spanish Imersion course.  The teachers would talk mostly to the children in Spanish.  At first I was like this is just a way to have Mexicans take care of my Angel.  Surprisingly this way of teaching works.  My Angel learned to count in Spanish and she knows her colors and some shapes.  One day in May the school planned a graduation for the students that were going to kindergarten.  I thought about the signification of this day to me but mostly for her.  She thought is was fun, but I could only think of what she was to encounter in the future.  Her world was about to be expanded beyond her imagination.  I arrived at her graduation and all I could think of is where is her mother, but of course she wasn't there.  At one point the graduates were to give a flower to their mothers instead I got the flower.  I could see her disappointment but she persevered anyways.  I thought of a song Ms. Jackson of Outkast.  "And yes I will be present on the first day of School and Graduation"  Only Graduation came first for my Angel.  I wonder if this is how our lives will be?  Even on a day of celebration we knew something was missing.  I just hope she will never have to graduate from the school of hard knocks like her daddy.